.
Why does it still hurt so much?!
Why why why why why...
They said the child will grow and the pain will go
But they lied
They lied again
My heart hurts so bad that I feel dizzy, I wanna vomit..
The pain stays, and it hurts even more
More and and more and more..

Today all my values, principles and rules got all mixed up and screwed that I have nothing to build anything on
I am empty
I am zero
I am null
I am me
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