when i woke up today
i wasn't me
i feel like a little girl
with nothing to think of, no anxiety
in a saturday morning
and oddly everything and anything is reminding me of death today
and it's still 10:54 am..
i'm in my bed under my blanket listening to this song
like i have this irremediable disease
and i'm dying.. slowly.. peacefully.. happily.. and
fully.
i remembered "American Beauty"s ending scene..
when Kevin Spacey died:
"I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die.
First of all,
that one second... isn't a second at all.
It stretches on forever,
like an ocean of time.
For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp,
watching falling stars.
And yellow leaves from the maple trees...
that lined our street.
Or my grandmother's hands and the way her skin seemed like paper.
And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand-new Firebird.
And Janie... and Janie.
And... Carolyn.
I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me,
but it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world.
Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once and it's too much.
My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst.
And then I remember to relax...
and stop trying to hold on to it.
And then it flows through me Iike rain,
and I can't feel anything but gratitude...
for every single moment of my stupid little life.
You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure.
But don't worry.
You will someday."
Saturday, April 5
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I was thinking about one of Tony Martins lyrics when I saw your page accidently,u know its name:I Won't Cry For You
So you lie awake and think about tomorrow,
And you try to justify the things you've done,
But there's no one here, to hear your tears falling,
When you turn around, you find out, that you're the lonely one.
And it feels like someone's treading on your shadow,
And you always thought that Heaven knows for sure,
And it feels like you're drowning, in your tears.
So I won't cry for you, no I ain't gonna cry for you,
And I ain't gonna lie for you, no I ain't gonna cry for you.
Ain't gonna cry for you.
So you lie awake and think about the sorrow,
Does it really still the fears in your mind,
And you try to realise the things you wanted,
But you take it all for granted and now it makes you blind.
And it feels like someone's treading on your shadow,
And you always thought that Heaven knows for sure,
And it feels like you're drowning, in your tears.
So I ain't gonna cry for you, no I ain't gonna die for you,
And I ain't gonna lie for you, no I ain't gonna cry for you.
Ain't gonna cry
I ain't gonna cry for you, I ain't gonna cry.
So I ain't gonna cry for you, no I ain't gonna die for you,
No I ain't gonna lie for you, no I ain't gonna cry for you,
Ain't gonna cry, ain't gonna cry for you no more,
Ain't gonna die, I ain't gonna die for no more,
Ain't gonna lie, I ain't gonna lie for no more,
Ain't gonna cry, I ain't gonna cry for you no more
If I recall correctly this is how the movie begins and not the end.I mean of course it's circular but yet.
@ goody: thanks, some serious rock's going on in that song.. loved it :)
@ anonymous: you recalled the scene and that's what matters ;)
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